BIG Dave OHYEAH!!!

I should do something with my life…

I just realized I didn’t talk to anyone today. Facebook, twitter, and texting dont count. I mean talk as in using real spoken words. I dont know if that is an accomplishment or a travisty.

And it hits me. Combining my last two posts, God knows I can’t treat my dream girl how I want to right now, so he hasn’t put her in my life yet… I have to believe there is a plan. I just hope it’s not for me to be miserable so someone else can know what joy is.

Once again I get to be motivated by rejection. Awesome! Not so much… Truthfully, I knew it was a reach. I just let myself think too much and get hyped up by possibilities. What I need is a short pretty blonde with curly hair, some meat on her bones, blue eyes, no kids, a big heart, loves movies, rap music, drinks vodka and beer, can kick my ass when I deserve it and can be as much of a freak as me when the lights go off. Is that too much to ask for? Geesh!

Tonight I embrace God’s challenge and promise to find the spark that I have lost. I will overcome my depression. I will overcome my doubts. I will embrace my flaws and turn my weaknesses into my strengths. I will no longer turn to friends who have changing faces, nor will I let them turn to me. My choices, my views, my goals, my everything must be altered because clearly the way I’ve been doing things is not right.

I’ve realized that being unhappy is a choice. My anxieties are my own. My decisions have made me who I am, and tonight I’m hungry. I will find a way to feed my soul. It’s time.

Love is something i have to give, without it, I feel that you have not lived, you make me smile, I wish you’d accept my gift, instead you spit in my face and talk some shit,

My smile and laugh are usually fake.

No matter how much I deny it, I’m a pretty good dude.